Now.

The feelings that plagued me everyday is still the same- the fears that haunt me, the paranoia that mocks me, the hurt that traps me.
I don’t think I know where we are going anymore- we are stagnant and abused, left abandoned on this ruse.
 
This is the way we have become… these sick feelings. Nothing to [...]

The same old shit

Of how I absolutely detest the weekend simply because I am used to Mondays to Fridays with a purpose- work and seeing you. Weekends on the other hand is unpredictable- and for someone like me who hates being lonely, has panic attacks at night; weekend is always with a dread if I end up with [...]

Incubus Love Hurts – official video
Tonight we drink to youth
And holding fast to truth
I don’t want to lose what I had as a boy
My heart still has a beat
But love is now a feat
As common as a cold day in LA
Sometimes when I’m alone
I wonder, is there a spell that I [...]

Kinky-ness

Over the phone your voice is barely audible- teasing, that kind of subtle discreteness.
Our conversation is intriguing- I laugh, because I am relieved my bad dream is just that. I am happy simply because you are you, nothing has changed. Frankness, the way I am genuinely happy when I’m with you.
You have to go, [...]

Hush little baby don’t you cry

I don’t know why but it seems I get very depressed these days. The emptiness-
I could rely on you baby for my entire happiness; but of course I know better. When one gives their all in a relationship, overpossesiveness will lead to be one being selfish, undemanding and unreasonable- overzealousness would eventually lead to [...]

Happy 3rd Month my love

90 days more or less, but my feelings for you is unchanged. Thank you baby for all the happiness you give me, for all your love.
You still make my heart go thump- you still simply just make me love you by being you.
I told you before all my relationships last less than a month- [...]

Smiles

Because I am awaken by Iris, because I sneak off to talk to you during work and because you take the time out to meet me for coffee.
Just so why I smile so much more these days… because the way you make me feel is still the same.

Anonymous

Certain raw feelings one always fail to state- because one would feel ashamed; society protocol teaches us opening up our true feelings leave us vulnerable, weak and naive.
Could I mention how paranoid and sad you make me feel? How each day I do my best to not let my imagination wild or assuring myself [...]

Sat nite

Fri was drinkin tll 6am at Shanghai Jazz. Matt’s integra, highway speedin and window windin. Relaxed conversations in a large group, nice way to wind down a hard day’s work. Was actually having a bad day, given my sales was not the top.
Sat was meeting Kris and Val to go to Hideout, where Paulo [...]

My saturday.

So baby you called me and my fears vanished away. It never fails to amaze me how you can make or break my day.
I love you baby!!!