Sunday Miracles amongst the ordinary

I had the best weekend ever in a long time, Sat being Sis’s bday party= me going out and smelling the outside air, wtf. Sunday was church.
Church was great- its like a full circle, 4 years later and its back to the chapter of Job. Jesus is amazing… I don’t even want to pen [...]

Sis’s Bday house Party

This is Sis’s fav pic. She like to la ji. HAHAHAHA.

See I’m celebrity sia, all the flash light. My legs look skinny, yeahs. I can’t remember taking this pic lor, and I didn’t and couldn’t drink alcohol, mind you.

Talking to Jenny and her friend, new people I met.

The fridge full of alcohol [...]

Someday I’ll be Saturday Night

Like the Bon Jovi song.
I’m all made up and dressed up, and my dress borrowed from sis fits me perfectly- I’m very pleased. Waiting to go out of the house, mom is fussing over baby.
I’m feeling good. Happy.
I wish I can drink though.

Bliss

Yesterday was great- I slept soundly from 4-8pm thanks to my meds. Had a family gathering at night, it was dear Uncle Derek’s 70th birthday. I love my Aunty Christine and Uncle Derek to bits. It was an “Aww” moment when my uncle who is this big Caucasian was stroking my small little Asian baby’s [...]

Decisions, independence.

Freedom is very very important to me, I have realised. I know why I’m so miserable now because I have lost my freedom. Things will get better very soon, its the weekend already. Just one more week to end this nightmare.
I am feeling very high because I made a decision, for myself. Its a secret [...]

Death

Kent talked to me yesterday night on msn… and Hussein talked to me on FB chat. Kent was trying to ask me about Baby’s full month, and after that he said, Hey you heard about S? While I was waiting for his reply, Hussein was talking to me. I was guarded at first, thinking he [...]

Endorphines

Yesterday night I was naughty. Not in the kinky way, I’m living such a sad life the only dick I have contact with is my son’s. Naughty because I had a few spoonfuls of my Soy Dream chocolate ice cream… I miss being pregnant so much. Although I’m very pleased I’m lost all my pregnancy [...]

The ties that bind

Still as irritated with mom. Kinda sad we’re not talking to each other as much- like first few days of confinement, would look forward to talking cock with mom after a long day of boredom at home.
Went to my room and stoned in the evening, staring at the ceiling than to talk to my [...]

Here’s my key
philosophy
A freak like me
Just needs infinity
Infinity, infinity
Relax
Take your time
And take your time
To trust in me
And you will find
Infinity, infinity, infinity
Infinity, infinity, infinity
Infinity, infinity, infinity
Infinity, infinity, infinity
And take your time
To trust in me
And you will find
Infinity, infinity
Infinity, infinity
Infinity, infinity
Infinity
The time goes by
So naturally
Why you’ll receive
Infinity, infinity, infinity
Infinity, infinity, infinity
Infinity
Here’s my [...]

Considerations

- I promise myself to suffer through another one more month before I give up breast feeding. Maximum is by January as I would have APM anyways. I look forward to APM- getting away and partying all I want. I need to think positive for him.
- Sam L text me to go partyworld tonight. [...]