Lucky I’m in Love with my Best friend’s boyfriend’s Best friend

One day, I’ll look back and these days would be the best I ever had when you’re too far away from me.
I wish I could write down every single detail, evey single second of being with you so that when I’m missing you, it’d be of comfort.
You’re amazing.

Mundane is life after the extraordinary

Even if so, the everyday life and routine is sprinkled with happiness. Even being sick doesn’t bother you, the throat hurts like mad, the coughing doesn’t allow you to sleep.
Stuck at home, but thinking of you makes me happy.
I have to remind myself to stay close to the Lord, playing one or two Hillsong songs [...]

Balance

So I was saying my com crashed cuz the best thing just happened to me in my life. In life, you gotta have a balance, and since the most recent thing happened which is totally a blessing and a gift, something’s gotta give? That’s just my reason why my com went nuts the next day [...]

Life, right now.

I’m applying for cabin crew… for what I don’t know but at least flying away takes the pain away. Right?
Today was great- Kelvin tan comes pick me, make a round turn when we were already on the highway to pick up JR, then the hippie couple. Kelvin Tan is really a good guy, note to [...]

Beautiful- Eminem

[Intro]
Lately I’ve been hard to reach
I’ve been too long on my own
Everybody has a private world
Where they can be alone
Are you calling me
Are you trying to get through
Are you reaching out for me
I’m reaching out for you
[Verse 1]
I’m just so fucking depressed, I just can’t seem to get out this slump
If I could just get [...]

Help me

The friends have just left my place-
I am grateful to them in my heart.
I am out of control
Drank without any food in my stomach;
Reza senses I am troubled and stops me from downing my second glass
The comforts of friends and alcohol and the sun,
Dempsey
Stops the killing inside me for a minute.
Rushing home for him-
I eat [...]

Party all night

Wednesday was wonderful-
Afternoon was baby’s visit to the doc. Then home, and leaving at 7-ish to meet B1 and her bf in town. I was so happy, with the festive lights, rain and a cigarette and good friends.

Aww.

It was awesome. Thanks to Sam G who came to town, drank one coke light and sent [...]

I will Make it

Fuck the emo shit. I cried my eyes out for an hour, and texted and called Daddy. I have decided to go back to work asap, holding two jobs.
He knows me so well I didn’t even need to go into details… whatever he said is 10x better than anyone have suggested, and telling me [...]

This is it

This is it, I’m pushed to my limit, on the brink.
The thought of suicide beckons and appeals suddenly,
she tempts and calls me.
Do not worry the nosy parkers around me,
the thought of it will remain so because.
I fantasize of what ifs what will be if it does,
the temptation of giving it all up,
cuz I’m tired and [...]